Monday, December 26, 2016

Je Te Veux

Si tu as compris ma détresse:
Arrêtez, chère amoureuse.
Si tu as compris mon désarroi:
S'il vous plaît, cesse.

Don't raise my hopes with such foul play,
your constant praise that makes me ripple.
Don't leave me in such disarray,
with sweet words you think so simple.

Don't speak to me with that sweet voice
that you speak with to all these people,
because my I cannot handle the joys,
and such lies shall leave me crippled.

I cannot hide I am a fool,
and playfully flirt or laugh,
when you dare call me beautiful
and call her too, so unabashed.

Do you call someone else so charming?
Or are your compliments only mine?
I find your manner quite disarming,
and want to hear it all the time.

I know now the stomach was lies,
for my chest is the nest of butterflies.

Je te veux.

Thursday, November 17, 2016

Cutlery Waltz

I ask you, fill up my heart.
As a teacup, to the brim.
Camomille, rooibos, chai,
Just two sugars and no milk.

I want to fill up my heart,
but all I do is burn my tongue.
My premonition is, perchance,
that I feel things so out of tone?

I want you to fill up my heart.
I want to fill my heart with you.
But when you link your hand and mine
I feel so sick it all will spew.

I want you to fill up my heart,
but I'm no cup, held by no saucer.
And if it were to be filled up,
it all would spill and spell disaster.

– - Lapinon, non. - –

Thursday, October 27, 2016

You Know, Today

You know, today
it was my name you called.
I believed you'd forgot it,
but instead you recalled!

You know, today
I heard your name.
The name that once
had no surname.

You know, today
I wish I had spoken more.
I wish I had seized the chance
to hear the voice that I adore.

You know, today...
No, I'm sure you don't.
That I am shy even
when it seems I am not.

You know, today
I wish you'd known
that I want to take in any
detail of how you shone.

Today, I know
I am heliotrope.
Turning my face to the sun,
a childish need to run.

– -Leur Lapine- –

God of the Rising Sun: Apollon

My cherishing your face
gives me nothing but malaise!
The charming crinkle in your eye...
My heart feels like it may die!

The taste of it is alkaline,
for I never gave you a piece of my mind.
Even if my condition is Pygmaline,
the illusion built will not be fine!

You're bright and fresh, unpolished,
Apollo of sunshine strides.
The way I've been astonished,
found the way to stir my pride.

Once my own appreciation
was my source of reverie.
But this brand new adoration,
hopes instead you'll look at me.

How is is that by mere sunshine,
the narcissus-filled riverbank
became meek, shy, Helianthus,
charmed by you to the bone.

– - Leur Lapine- –



Saturday, October 15, 2016

Tearaway

Oh how I've felt myself fading. It is sometimes quite gradual, sometimes it comes crashing like tropical rains and is gone after a nap, a day, a month. I look to the winter months with open arms in search for maidenly shelter, as the weather and the situation have taken my frills away from me.

Buds have taken root upon my face, and when they blossom they leave in their wake no bloom but scabs and stains. Trees have taken root upon my hands, and as they grow they grow black and stray and heavy. The sap envelops my fingers and keeps my swiftness at bay, gracefulness is also gone and receding, leaving my fabrications dull like smoke. A mole has made its home upon my mouth, teaching my voice blindness and feasting upon my teeth.

My solace came only once as I closed my eyes and let my jaw fall away. It let my voice out in handsome cries, my feet took root in the Scarborough Fair. Upon the dew and pacing the grass, my drab soul of roots set free, I sang it once clear and darling, sending chills throughout me.

My voice is struggling now, as unfounded confidence tries to consume me. Inside it I taste salt and charcoal, my throat enclosing in. I look upon the winter hopeful, that the cold will wash away the me. The me that now feels like it never, ever, ever, never once has felt dainty.

I look upon you snowy soldier, to be my weathered nurse. To strip my heaving mass of its current skin, and let me prance in clean, pristine. I, for now, shall turn the mirror. Turn it so I cannot face me, for if I am ever to catch a glimpse of this ugliness, my claws will tear away my skin.

I hope for your answer nursery winter, come soon and remember me. Come the coldest you have ever, and do not disappoint me.

– - Leur Lapine - –

Friday, September 30, 2016

Childhood's Despair, Girlhood's Rondo

Have I not been gone for too long? I have indeed. I have been quite taken by school (and not in the entranced, beautiful way!). As part of an assignment, we had to write a short, at most two-page-long story. I feel that what I've made has a charm that would suit this blog just fine, and maybe you would enjoy. It is somewhat of an extension of my previous story/poem "Alice Under The Lantern", and I feel that it reflects what I wanted to achieve initially more successfully.
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Alice stands under a lantern. The big clock in the sky is talking to her in ticks, maybe it’s morse, she doesn’t know. She doesn't like it very much but she keeps waiting. She knows Mr.Rabbit will come for her if she's patient. She keeps waiting.

Alice sits under a lantern. The night is cold and the floor is damp and the moths are swirling. Swirling around the moon, also called "the lightbulb overhead". She forgot to wear her coat again, and she thinks she should have brought it with her tonight. She thinks of Mr.Rabbit’s coat while she waits, looking at the moths overhead. They kiss the moon and then fall dead.

Alice is only so many years old. To some she's a youngster, to some she's getting old. She's had a long life compared to others, short life compared to more. The clock doesn’t care, he’s on his merry way. Time doesn’t matter to him, does it to her? Alice waits.

Alice swings her feet next to the lantern. She can't see her reflection lost inside the black-backwater mirror. She should have worn glasses, like Mr.Rabbit does. But then her eyes, would they not be lost? She thinks of Mr.Rabbit’s rabbit coat. And here I thought wolves wore sheepskin, not angora fur.

Hi, Miss. Alice. What do you look at with those glass-like eyes of yours?” It's already past midnight. Passed even, is Cinderella's time for bed. The clock has stricken, and won’t for another long, long time. I raise my voice to her cold ears, but Alice would rather hear a step… Of two drunkards along their way. I can't sing to her anymore, my voice has grown tired. “Still you do not answer” I once was all she desired.
The days I spent with you have been broken and thrown by someone else. What ever-river-black fantasy lies inside those blue pearls? Ever inside here, ever asinine, ever childish heart. “Hi, Miss. Alice.” Isn’t he such a dream? Ever late, ever fickle and forgetful, and Alice doesn’t seem to care. Inside her blue starlit threads, the current time’s darkness is at a loss of words.

The light is morose and morbid, but nobody knows that anymore. The only words from said darkness come out screeching and coarse. “Who is that annoying person?” she wonders. And the voice is not mine. But in the light she can’t really see, the cat that’s speaking over me.

She stands under a lantern. The big cat in the sky is talking to her in clicks of his tongue, maybe it’s morse, she doesn’t know. She doesn't like it very much but she keeps waiting. She knows Mr.Rabbit will come for her if she's patient. She has been waiting.

Hi Miss. Alice. What are you trying to hide in those honeysuckle locks of yours?” The cat doesn’t sing but he speaks. He speaks louder and clearer than me, and Alice listens... “Have they never told you you should talk to strangers? You may learn something new.” And here I thought that lions had no stripes.

“I know my favourite stranger.” And he’s the only one she sees. She knows Mr.Rabbit has come for her, that choking smell is his. She likes it very much. She has finished her waiting, now the rabbit is close.

Alice and her pet run along three pages. From white to black and blue. The rabbit and his pet run along three streets, the lights from blue to red. They run and run and run until the fine rabbit becomes a hare, and the fine Alice becomes a hag. Mr.Rabbit  is only so many years old. To some he's a youngster, to some he's getting old. To Alice…

Ever-deep inside her fruitsome heart, she’ll do the rabbit’s dance. What ever-river-black sentence lies inside those cage-like teeth? Ever inside her, ever asinine, once-upon childish metamorphose. The blue roses I gave to you are slowly turning dark red.

Toujours,
Leur Lapine

Friday, August 26, 2016

Lifestyle 365: Gorgeous Gardens!

Let us all rejoice among the flowers!

A you may have read on my previous post, I have begun taking certain prompts from Lace à la Mode's 365 Lolita Challenge, as an opportunity of sorts to get used to blogging. For today's selection, I'll be elaborating on prompts no. 180, which is to share my favourite gardens. Now, I shall restrict this to gardens that I have personally visited, because otherwise I would be doomed to indecision and longing.

My favourite gardens are some that I have visited whilst in Belgium. I have been in quite a number of beautiful gardens in my family's summer travels, like those of Schönbrunn, Charlottenburg, and Versailles. Regardless of their fame, I feel a stronger connection to these gardens and their beauty. To me, they are a real memory of my daily life, and my once-reality.

To start it off, my favourite garden would be that of the Breivelde castle. This castle is now a brasserie, and its gardens are now a public park. It is located in the town in which I used to live back in Belgium, and I would cross it on my way back home on school days whenever I felt I needed to relax and get away from the everydayness. I would sit inside of a pine tree, hidden by the needles, and just listen to music, the wind, and the footsteps.

My second favourite garden is once again, a public park. This is called the Petit Sablon or Kleine Zavel. We went through the park in a field trip for our history class, and out teacher told us something about the statue of Egmont and Horne, but I cannot remember what it was. However, a fun fact is that the Count of Egmont had his castle in the same town that the first park is located in! It is now a library in the city centre, surrounded by another lovely park that hold concerts on thursdays.

Sometimes I wonder if my admiration of foreign parks seems strange to people where it is normal to have well taken careof public areas. In my state it it very uncommon to find a well-maintained public park. If they are not tended to by those who live nearby (which in itself is quite unusual) they will be dried and dirty, and occasionally foul-smelling. Thus far I have found one park in a more touristic area that is pleasant to stroll around. It is quite small and does not have much flair or fancy, but even in its simplicity, I find it quite enjoyable. This park, sadly and much due to some ill-mannered visitors, does not make it into the list.

Now then, I hope that you may have found a way to enjoy my ramblings and reminiscences. If you ever find yourself in East Flanders (or Belgium for that matter, as it is quite small), do make a short trip to any of these parks on a day of nice weather. In case that you visit in spring, you must go to the blooming fruit trees of Hasselt!


Encore et toujours,
Lapine.