The songs won't play without glitching.

 I realized tonight:

That it is not wrong of me to be afraid,

That is it not wrong of me to be affected.

To think about you

To still think of you. 

To breathe heavy, to speak of my memories and feel

as shivers and shakes slowly crawl from within my bones.

I shall not be embarrassed, I mustn't.

Because it was not a simple heartbreak

for me to heal from quickly and forget,

it was horror, it was pain, your screams pulsating in my brain.

The desire to vomit out my heart and my guts,

to say goodbye to any piece of me that could feel,

is nothing of which I shall draw any shame.

And I needn't accept the blame.

I realized the guilt you paint on me is not my business.

You who cannot see the role you play in your own misery.

If I was so evil, why am I so afraid?

I realized the sting is not love but lightning.

The quick heart beat and the electric static, making my hair stand up on end.

I am not embarrassed to feel afraid even though I am stronger.

And the reason you hang around my mind is not any love but unfinished business,

the me in your arms is but a ghost of past days. Of you and I, all that remains

is the splintered bones and skin I've shed.